I’m so glad that I’m now coming towards that point in my life where I will be forced to abandon contact with certain people who I really don’t want to associate with, now that I’ve got to know their realities. My friends (or so they were called) were just friends of opportunity. With the exception of a rare few who I’d like to mention in code words with the letters of their first names being real. They were Miranda, Wendy, Felicity, Shannon, Annie, Rachel, Alicia, Sarah and Macey. Unfortunately, I couldn’t hangout with them more often, due to some reasons. And the closer group that I had and even the friend that seemed closest t me betrayed me in the end. Not completely betrayed, but she made it very clear that she didn’t give a damn abut me at all. On the other hand, I proved to her time and time again how selfless I was in my friendship. She even misguided me a little, I would say, but she made it very clear that she considered herself above me, and that I was of least importance. Her studies came first, then everything else. She wants servants, I realized. People who would do stuff for her, help her and in return she would just give a little token of thanks n texts and that would be it. I can hardly remember a time where she went at lengths for something that I needed. This is how the world is. Whenever I get too close to a person, Allah shows me their true colours.
And I feel privileged for that. That Allah cares about me and wants me to rely only on Him instead of people. I now enjoy my own company better than those phony people’s. I would be content watching Islamic lectures on Youtube rather than talking to people who have no interest in me whatsoever. Alhamdulillah, I have my parents and siblings and over the years I’ve realized what great supports they can be!
You really don’t need people to lead a content life. You do require them at certain points but you do not need to make a person the focal point in your life. That’s all I can say and I’m content to eventually lose touch with all the useless connections I was forced to make.
I can’t believe I’m the one who’s saying this. I am such a cordial person who loves to socialize and here I am, saying all of this, after realizing the truth about people. It doesn’t mean I hate people. I will continue to be civil with people, ofcourse, but I wouldn’t ever dream of getting too attached to anyone in my life except Allah.